10/8

Pam and Hugo came over today. I had her cut my hair which I guess is moot, but I like when she cuts my hair. We get to talk. Also, I can tell that when she’s cutting hair, she feels how I feel when I’m writing music. I like contributing to that. Plus I’m sure she’d rather do it now than later. She and Hugo had a “secret meeting” with Mom when I got out of the shower. Good for them, I’m happy for her. Hugo’s great and I know he’ll take good care of her.
I was going to work on my book, but I could tell I was going to get a headache. Instead I wrote my letters. One to Mom, one to the girls, one to my friends, one to family and one to Brian and the DL. I explained to everyone why I didn’t say anything and how I don’t regret it because I was able to enjoy my last month instead of wallowing, and trying to make everyone OK with it. I left a will of sorts, leaving Mom in charge of everything (except my comics of course, Brian gets those). I left Mom the password to my computer so she can access my book and music. I also told everyone about my blog so they can look back on my last month if they want to. It felt like a huge weight was lifted when I finished and I’m actually in a pretty good mood. One step closer. I think I’ll treat myself to some Smallville tonight.